Tonight, I sit sipping on a cup of tea before going to bed and realize for the first time, in quite some time, I feel completely at peace. I think I am finally in a groove with the way life is supposed to be for now.
It has not come without bumps and bruises, but I think i have figured out the routine of what life has dealt me and I am getting it. Yeah, I have had to pull out the "female" card out of my back pocket and ask for help to figure out how to take the ceiling fan apart to get to the light bulb, to figure out how to winterize the house, to fix the furnace I think might have an issue heading into the winter months, but overall, I am maintaining our home.
I have survived the last two weeks with the rotation of three sick kids, juggling my job, after school activities, military extras and me time with very little stress and came out the other side unscathed.
This is a huge accomplishment, and for that, I am at peace.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
SIGH OF RELIEF
Today is a sad day, though I breathe a sigh of relief. The 114th Transportation Company family lost a member over the weekend and with a heavy heart, I am grateful for my husbands safety. As I talked to him last week speak to me about the incident and to find out how close he was to it, my heart sank. It is times like this that make the true reality of this whole deployment come alive, the uncertainty, the unknown, and most of all the danger.
Every day my life goes on back here at home, life continues, school days move forward, the office looms ahead, sickness happens, and get togethers are abundant. For my husband, his life is in like a time continuum, his life is happening every day but it is separate from his family, he is in his own world only able to connect to his "real" life through a telephone line.
It is moments like today where respect is deepened for the men and women who risk their lives every day to allow me the freedom to write the words I am right now. My husband is among those fighting and putting his life on the line for someone who will never know his name, never know his life beyond the uniform, yet he does it for no recognition, he just does the job he believes in.
Tonight, as I send my thoughts and prayers to the family of the fallen hero of the 114th Transportation Co, I breathe a sigh of relief for the voice I heard at the other end of the phone this morning, for I was allowed one more day to say all the things I wanted to.
Every day my life goes on back here at home, life continues, school days move forward, the office looms ahead, sickness happens, and get togethers are abundant. For my husband, his life is in like a time continuum, his life is happening every day but it is separate from his family, he is in his own world only able to connect to his "real" life through a telephone line.
It is moments like today where respect is deepened for the men and women who risk their lives every day to allow me the freedom to write the words I am right now. My husband is among those fighting and putting his life on the line for someone who will never know his name, never know his life beyond the uniform, yet he does it for no recognition, he just does the job he believes in.
Tonight, as I send my thoughts and prayers to the family of the fallen hero of the 114th Transportation Co, I breathe a sigh of relief for the voice I heard at the other end of the phone this morning, for I was allowed one more day to say all the things I wanted to.
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