Saturday, January 31, 2009

Counting Down

We are into our final days of waiting to see if John will be deployed with this new unit out of Chisholm, MN. We are supposedly finding out by this Friday, but this is just killing me. It is so frustrating to just sit and wait for the phone to ring.

John keeps telling me we will find out sometime during the week, but it is the military and they are not ones to put your emotions in front. We had a long talk this afternoon about the timing of this and I would rather have just had him leave with his old unit. Now it will be sometime between now and next year.

It was at that moment that I realized if he was still with his old unit his departure would be in just over a week. I am nowhere near being prepared for this deployment, even with over 8 months of knowing and getting mentally prepared. The good thing about all of this, the kids have not mentioned a thing about it since the day we told them.

Although the day involved talk of deployment, I spent the afternoon with Max, my oldest, hanging out and making a very special trip to meet some very special puppies. We went to meet 6, four week old, Yorkshire Terriers. They were the most adorable puppies you have ever seen. I have never been privileged enough to see a puppy at such a young age, but a relative of a co-worker has been breeding puppies since a very young age and invited me over to his home to meet the little bundles of fur. Max was surrounded by 4 little pups who crawled right into his lap and fell fast asleep. It was such a great day. After the meeting, Max and I, at his request, had lunch at White Castle.

It is after days like today, that you realize how much your children have grown. The manners Max had when entering a strangers home, made me just beam with pride. He was kind and gentle with the puppies and talked when spoken to, not just got shy and turn away.

When we got home, he went to find his brother and sister to see what they were up to and the house was quiet and peaceful.

The night ended with the kids eating dinner and sitting down to watch a movie and John and I, for the first time in a long time eating dinner alone with a conversation about life. It was a good day! Just six more to go to hopefully an answer!

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Ticking Time Bomb

You know how I mentioned the ticking time bomb of a military family? The on again, off again routine, well here is what I was talking about. . . .

Two weeks ago, John confirmed that his temporary transfer back to his old unit would not be going through, so he would not be deployed to Iraq with them. John is on a back up list in case of injury or anything else that might cause a soldier to not be able to be deployed. His new unit is on the schedule to be deployed in November 2010, so we were put back on the sit and wait.

Guess what, John got a call on Friday verifying his eligibility to be deployed and that he would be put on the list with a unit out of Chisholm needing soldiers to complete their unit for deployment. We will be notified by February 6th as to whether or not they are being deployed and when.

This is where the frustration starts to set in and the mind struggle to not complain. I did willingly marry into this life knowing my husband is part of the military. The problem I am having is that you mentally prepare for this, start to discuss with the kids about Daddy leaving and then it is taken away. Then, put all back into your life a couple of weeks later.

My kids refer to war and Daddy leaving as "die", "bad", "guns", there is no good response that is given to me as a Mom and it is so hard to comfort their minds and change their interpretation to the good side of this. Maybe I don't even know the good side and that is why I am having such a hard time.

John is just as frustrated, do you just go and get it over with or hope that the pushing of paper delays any chance of being deployed. It is no less painful for him, he misses a full year of his family, the milestones, the heartache, the holidays, and everything else that can happen in 365 days.

To look at the good side of it, as of today, he is not going to Iraq and we have discontinued even preparing for it. We are planning Max's birthday in March, Easter and our Anniversary, just taking it day by day.

I will keep you posted as we know more on John's deployment. Stay safe!

Sunday, January 4, 2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Another year, another set of goals to set and hope to attain.

This year will begin with a huge sigh of relief with the acknowledgement of John's new transfer to a unit located in Brooklyn Park to serve as a Sergeant. With this transfer, there will unlikely be a deployment in February. Don't get me wrong, this is a good thing, but it just starts the ticking time bomb of, if not now, when clock all over again for us.

There was such an outpouring of support for us over the past few months when we made the official public announcement to our family and friends, there will never be enough words I can express of gratitude.

As the Karline Klan looks toward 2009, there will be many hurdles and highlights as many families will face.

Our youngest, Sarah will begin Kindergarten in the fall, Colby will continue to thrive through his school and most of all his artwork and finally Max, growing intellectually by the minute and being very humble about it.

As for John and I, we continue to struggle with our job security, Ford Motor and the mortgage business both are shaky and we have decided to hold steady and ride the wave of the market.

Our new house, now four years old, is beginning to look more like a home as we live, love and laugh everyday within its walls.

Happy New Year to everyone!